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I was standing on the beach, her note twisted in my grip. We’d barely spoken in a week but then I was leaving work and I saw the strip of paper tucked underneath my windshield. It said to meet her. That she was sorry. And yet there I was, watching the waves lap at her from a distance, hair already wet and hanging down her back, as if I was the one who should be sorry.
Because I’d said no.
She’d asked me for one thing. To go with her. And I’d said no.
I finally waded out to where she was waiting on the first sand bar.
After a long pause she said, “I’m sorry.”
She reached for my hand and I reached back.
“I’m sorry too,” I said.
“Don’t,” she stopped me.
We waded out a little farther and she floated onto her back. I watched the night ripple over her, stars flush to her skin. She slipped out of her bathing suit, the fabric floating there atop the water as the moon pooled across her skin, light bleeding into her navel, down between her breasts.
My fingers crawled across her skin and she pulled me under. I found her lips, bodies pouring into one another while the light danced above our heads. She led me toward the air again, her eyes catching the night’s flame, flickering there in the dark.
“Do you think this is what it feels like?” she said.
“Do you think this is what it feels like to be dead?”
“What do you mean?”
She kicked, floating onto her back again, stars tangled in her hair.
“This drifting. I bet it’s warm. I bet it feels like a wave pulling you away from shore.”
“No,” I said, afraid.
“Do you think there are stars? Do you think you can get tangled in them?”
“There’s no heaven for stars.”
She stood, facing the moon. “Unless that’s it.”
“Maybe,” I said, still watching her.
“Maybe. Sometimes I wish I could remember,” she said. “Like maybe it would give me permission to be sad. Like maybe then Mari wouldn’t hate me.”
I didn’t know what to say.
“Do you think she’ll ever forgive me?”
Then I remembered what day it was. The day her father had died.
“You don’t need that from her,” I said.
“Yes I do,” Nia breathed. “Today I do.”
Tears slid down her neck and into the water. I reached for her.
“I hope this is what it’s like.”
Nia held her breath, letting go of my hand, and then I watched her sink
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