Every writer you know who has been shelving manuscript after manuscript; every writer you know who frantically checks their sales page every half hour; every writer you know who spends more time staring down a blank page than actually writing; every writer you know who is too afraid to even call themselves that isn’t actually afraid of not finishing. But of not being good enough. The fear of failure has crippled us all, and if we’re lucky we experience a little bit of success–enough to quell those fears for a while. But what no one tells you is that success fixes nothing. Because once you have a little bit of success, that fear of failure is quickly replaced by something else. The fear of being a disappointment.
While finishing TDOTN, every time I felt blocked, the words barely trickling out, I had the luxury of reminding myself that I had finished 6 other novels. I could finish this one too. I would. Success had leveled some of my doubt but it wasn’t the fear of running out of words that kept stopping me in my tracks. It was the fear of finishing, of coming to the end of the series, and it not being good enough. Not good enough for readers. Not good enough for the characters and the world I’d spent 5 years building.
I spent 2 years working on this novel–rewriting, revising, building it piece by piece and tearing it back down again. I came to a point when I realized that it would never be perfect–a moment of revelation I have with every novel–and that if I didn’t set some kind of deadline I would never be able to move on. I needed to move on. So that’s what I did. I set a deadline. I finished the novel. I published it. And then my worst fears came true. People were disappointed.
This blog post isn’t about me trying to explain the lesson in all of this. It’s still too fresh for me to find the value. I understand the mistakes I made and how I let down my readers who pre-ordered the novel by delivering a faulty file. I also understand how great of a risk it was to trust that Amazon would value its KDP authors enough to fix the mistakes they made as well. But I’m not talking about the disappointment surrounding how the book was delivered to customers. I’m talking about the disappointment people felt about the story. The story. My world. My characters. My ending. Right now…it’s way too painful to understand the lesson in all of that. But I will. One day soon I will wake up and not be so afraid to start again.
***Another update! Here are the step-by-step instructions on how to download the corrected file for The Daughter of the Night–> 1) Go to the “Manage Your Content and Devices” page 2) Click on “Settings” 3) Scroll down until you see “Automatic Book Update” 4) Switch it to “ON”. This should update the book on your device.
**Good news! Amazon has FINALLY uploaded the correct file. If you previously downloaded the version available this morning, you can contact Amazon customer service to receive the updated file or you can email your purchase receipt to me (email@example.com) and I will send you the MOBI directly.**
Tonight at midnight The Daughter of the Night will be auto-delivered to over a THOUSAND KINDLES! I am so grateful to everyone who pre-ordered a copy and has been patiently waiting for the completion of this series. Because of that, I want to make sure that everyone has the most professional product possible. In order to make sure this happens, first, I must go on a very brief rant.
Thursday night was my deadline to upload the final version of the manuscript. In KDP’s guidelines it says this must be done by midnight three days before the book’s release. However, due to a glitch or the savage handiwork of satan, my book page was locked at 9:30PM. I emailed customer service and they never responded. This means that the version that will automatically download to your kindle devices is NOT the final version. While the story is complete, it is not the beautifully formatted version that I made with Vellum, it still contains some copyediting issues, and it is missing a Logical Table of Contents (Honestly, these are mostly minor issues and do not impact the plot of the story but I’m still furious).
KDP is rather unpredictable when it comes to WHEN exactly files will be made available to readers. I have my fingers crossed that files are delivered at midnight eastern time and that once the book goes live I’ll be able to quickly upload the updated version before many people download it. If you happen to download the manuscript that Amazon locked in error, you can email me directly and I will send you the corrected mobi file–> firstname.lastname@example.org. Or you can email KDP customer service and ask them to send you the updated file of the book.
Hopefully, enough readers will see this blog post via Twitter or my newsletter and won’t download the book until the new version is live (I’ll be updating on my blog and on Twitter). But I definitely won’t be getting much sleep tonight as I wait to see whether or not this whole mess blows up. Please accept my sincerest apology for any inconvenience this may cause. I appreciate everyone who has stuck with me on this journey. You all have already been so patient and I hate to ask you to wait any longer. But I want you to receive a final product worthy of your time and money. I hope you understand. Thank you again for all of your support!
The Daughter of the Night instrumental soundtrack is now available for download!
Get your copy at my new website here
The release of the soundtrack also means that there are ONLY 30 DAYS LEFT until TDOTN is delivered to your kindle. Thank you so much to everyone who has reserved a copy! I’ve been blown away by the number of pre-orders and can’t wait to get this novel in your hands. Also, thank you to everyone who’s already downloaded a copy of the companion soundtrack. I hope you enjoy experiencing this story in a brand new way.
Still need to pre-order your copy of The Daughter of the Night? Click here 🙂
Need something to hold you over until release day? Download the soundtrack here
THE TIME HAS COME!
The Amazon gnomes have finally gotten my pre-order links up and running for The Daughter of the Night. They’re still working on getting all of my new covers uploaded and also on price-matching The Boy in Her Dreams, which is now $2.99 on all other platforms (that means you should get a copy now *or gift one to a friend* while the low price of $0.99 still lasts).
Reserve your copy of book 4 here:
The Daughter of the Night: The Girl In Between Book 4
And in more GREAT news…I now have a brand spankin’ new website, which you can visit here: http://www.laekanzeakemp.com…and where you will find information about The Daughter of the Night soundtrack!
YES, an actual soundtrack as in the story set to actual sound, which you can actually listen to while you read!
A HUGE thanks to Najla Qamber who designed the new covers for The Girl In Between series! I absolutely love them!
These covers will be added to Amazon tomorrow. If you previously purchased one of the novels and want a digital copy with the updated cover you should be able to re-download the file from Amazon via the product page or by contacting Amazon customer service.
In other news, I’ll be launching an actual author website tomorrow! Specific information about the series finale, the forthcoming soundtrack, and the series boxset will be available there. I’ll also be sharing pre-order links!